boring

long time din update
started semester 5 for three weeks
but i'm still the same..very very lazy
laziness seem like getting serious now
i will try hard to change it
hope it will works out soon
last sem break started with damn emo feeling
i dunno why coz of exam??girl stuff?
anything la..it feel really so bad
every night "raining"
and totally dun feel like talk to anyone especially family in those few weeks
just all by myself
the body clock was 6am-3pm
but luckily after 2 3 weeks it turned normal again
and my holiday ended with happy mood
coz i met up my primary friends after 6 years =)
kinda fun gather back with they all
some changed some not
and i went pulau pangkor during last 2 days of the holiday
it's really a fun and special trip
fall in love with cycling again after the trip!
i did told my sis bout the emo feeling
she told me to see doctor..sigh..i hate it and kinda scare of it
i duwan to be like that so now i try to contro my mood and temper but it only seems to be getting worst
anyway i duwan to bother or think bout it and wont consult doctor too coz i feel i'm not...
just be happy :)

dad at hospital now
although same thing again but i still dun like that
just pray and hope that he can learn to take care of himself better and rest more
i din say much to him coz we are the same kind
if duwan to do something sure wont do it unless it;s under our willingness
hope his health wil be better
and so do grandma
hmmm
dunno what to say
just hope everything will be ok

the other side grandma's birthday just passed
like usual..all those gossip,mask,comparison came up again
luckily i'm not there when they talked bout it
if not i will kisiao again
i know i never be the good one to say no matter how hard i try
so luckily my bro just took his result and well as expected
he is the top 1 and get a good job too
sometime kinda tired when i tried to be what u wan us to be, but end up i still cant change ur thinking bout me
always the bad one...result also okok only..only knows how to spend money..never help to do work..etc etc
feel like wan to shout out excuse me is u that didnt pay attention to what i did at all!!
i'm not like the others that u always used to say they are so good or whatever
i just used different way to show my love to u
just u never ever notice it
general:HUMAN ALWAYS NOTICE ONLY EACH OTHER BAD SIDE MORE THAN THE GOODSIDE
it's hurts more when u say u din put on pressure on me!!coz i can know what's on ur mind
i just trying to find myself my way
i have my own thinking too
but do u ever care bout it??
I NEVER COMPARE U TO THE OTHERS SO CAN U PLEASE STOP DOING THAT!
i wanna do soemthing great..wan to achieve something great too but not like what the others achieved
duwan to live under people's shadow anymore
GOOD PEOPLE HARD TO BE..BUT BAD PEOPLE ALSO HARD TO BE
but i still chose to be bad so i will just accept the result from it
TRY NOT TO HEAR SEE INVOLVE BOTHER too much things now
WALLS AROUND AROUND AND AROUND
mayb will back to the old me or the new me???
good or bad??depends
the old me in some aspect and new me in some expect perhaps
anyway mon i need to pass up macro's homework d
i still didnt touch it hahahaaa
tomorrow stil got work
DEAD



SMILE=)



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