raining day~~

it's raining heavily now
haixx
hate raining day especially when i was alone
hate feel d big wind and hate listen to the sound of raining
from small till now i was scared when it's was raining
duno the reason also
raining during the day is still ok but if at night..i really scared
everytime raining i will try to watch movie to calm myself and to try not thinking of raining or thunder
everytime raining will hope that there is people beside me..and all the time is sister acc me especially when sleeping
juz cant imagine if dun have my sis sleep with me when there is thunder or raining..THANKZ SIS and SORRY because i know i always very bad ask you to do this do that or scolded you just because my mood is bad..i've tried to control my temper
the feel of scared of raining is really terrible..i think nobody can understand that
still remember when small ,almost everynite i had bad dream and will wake up at midnight..especially when raining
really bad~~now still remember some of the bad dream..and when think of that i really really very scared



haixx
this mid-year exam results is totally disaster
so sad but what to do..is myself duwan study
but duno why many people thought i am very hardworking
really dun like when people say me that
they always say my result was good but for me or my mum..i know it always is just BAD and NOT ENOUGH GOOD TO BEAT UP MY SIS OR BRO
i really want to try hardworking to get good result so my mum can no longer say my result bad infront of my BITCH relatives and so that can like my sis..every one was praise her all the time


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